"The best thing about the future is that it comes one day at a time."

The best thing about my future right now is "Change." I am so ready to change my image, my weight, my health. Like I was saying the other day I was going to start my healthy life change on Monday the 24th. Well I have news! I DID IT....and it has been great all this week. I am sorry for the late update, but this weekend had some unfortunate events involving me and some Fire Ants. Long story short I got attacked by Fire Ants on the back of my legs was bit about 34 times, and to make matters worse I am allergic to them. Through all that I still stayed true to my plan to change my eating habits.

So here it is Wednesday 26th 2011 three days into it and I am feeling better than ever my excitement is at 100% which helps me stay strong and not cheat. Really it is not a bad diet at all basically is making you eat the healthy things and cutting out the stuff that really does nothing good for you. I am going to weigh in at the end of the week and see what I have lost. I am not sure I will be sharing my weight but I wanted to do a before and after picture so later when I look back at this I can see the change, and maybe it will give someone out there some encouragement.

So here is New Years Eve 2010 with Alex, Tamara, and Dustin. This is the heaviest I have ever been. So here is to a new beginning. I am so ready!

Ps. The highlight of my day yesterday was finding out I can eat as much "Sugar Free" Jello I want!!!!

Highlight of my day today is I can drink my 0 Monster still it's only 2 carbs per can!!!

It's the little things that get me excited...till next time<3

Faith is to believe in what you do not see"

I have faith in myself.

I have faith in my family.

I have faith that God has a great plan for me.

I have faith that one day I will do something spectacular.

I have faith in my relationship with Alex.

I have faith that I am a Strong person.

I have faith that I will have a beautiful family one day.

Faith is to believe in what you do not see.

Faith is holding on when you are ready to let go,

the most powerful thing about faith, is you have the power.

I have faith do you?

Not What I Want to See in the Mirror Anymore...

So here it is January 17th and everyone is already in their 3rd or 4th week of their "New Year’s Resolution" I have never been big on making "plans" that will probably fade away somewhere around Valentine’s Day. This year feels different I have put on so much weight I really feel like it's time to have a life change. I am tired of not taking pictures, or feeling uncomfortable in public, or some days just avoiding looking in the mirror. Today I have plenty of reasons to jump feet first into weight loss frenzy!

The 5 things to get me through...

1. Our Wedding - I don't want to be a plus size bride.

2. Health - I don't want to end up with diabetes

3. I want to fit into cute jeans! - You know the ones with the decorations on the pockets!

4. I DON'T want to keep saying “I want to be smaller" - I want to do it!

5. Engagement photos - I want to reward myself with tons of photos of just Alex & I

So here is the Plan

Monday the 24th I am going to start my healthy living program. I am jump starting my healthy eating habits with the Adkins. I will be doing a 2 week program which consists of a lot of protein and only consuming 20 carb's a day, exercising with the Insanity program 3 times a week, and the traditional 2 walks for Misty a day. I have decided it's all up to me, not my parents, not Alex, not my friends. I am going to make my own eating habits, and I am going to have to make myself get off the couch and do my exercise program 3 times a week. I have decided it can't be a couples thing I am doing my own thing, and Alex is doing his.

Excuses, Excuses!

I love using excuses why I don't want to eat right tonight, or why it's not a good night to work out. Alex is one of my favorites, "well I have to wait for him to be ready", or "well he is in pain tonight so we won’t go work out." I keep using the word "We" I know!!! This time it’s me, and I that’s it! I will be doing the exercises 3 time s a week, and I will be eating right to get where I want to be!

I am so ready I want to start today, but I know the previous times I have just jumped into something I tend to drop it in a week. So this week is my last week of Food Freedom. I am letting my body enjoy the things I will be going without for a while. I am going to gradually introduce the things I will be eating on Adkins throughout this week.

I am going to try to do a weekly post so I can keep myself going, and to remind myself I am doing this for "ME"

Monday 24, 2011 is the magic number.... See you then!

"A New Year brings New Beginnings."

So here It is 2011, wow seems like I was just getting in the habit of writing 2010. Well my life has been a bit busy lately...Let’s start back in November. For Thanksgiving Alex and I went to Arkansas and had an amazing time at a cabin in the mountains. It was a good weekend to just sit around and be swarmed by family. I don't know about you, but family always makes me feel better.

So after Thanksgiving soon came Christmas, and we spent Christmas eve with Alex's family, and had an amazing time. Nothing big and spectacular but again it was nice to just have the family there. I did get everything I wanted for Christmas... inducing Our beautiful puppy, Misty.

PUPPY SIDE STORY: For all you who don't me. I am a cat person always have been, and something inside of me for a while now has been saying "let's get a dog." Well….here is our beautiful Catahoula puppy that we rescued when she was 6 weeks old. Probably not one of those moments I can think back and really say I was thinking about the WHOLE picture. Going on 3 weeks now, and I am pretty sure every piece of carpet in my dining room has been peed on. Don’t get me wrong we are having a great time with her, It still amazes me how smart she is at only 8 weeks. Alex taught her how to Sit, and I am working on Stay, and Shake. The potty training is coming along slowly, It has taken me a few extra breaths to work through some accidents she has had. I will say having a puppy for the 1st time is defiantly a learning process for the puppy, and for you.

So back to Christmas, my family celebrated Christmas on Christmas day with a nice dinner at my grandma’s house. My mom spent all day preparing a wonderful meal on top of being super busy these last few months caring for my 85 year old grandmother who is slowly slipping downhill. She suffers from slight Alzheimer's, and is no longer able to live on her own. After her small stroke back in November she has decided her best option is to leave her home of 65 years and move into an Assisted Living. Well how that sounds like the best option she is having a really hard time dealing with the transition So this Christmas was kind of a special one seeing how we all know our Grandmas’ days are limited.

On the other hand I am 100% ready for what 2011 will bring for me. We celebrated the last few hours of 2010 with Dustin and Tamara at a New Year’s party, it was a lot of fun. I am really looking forward to March this year, because that will be the start of a new beginning for both of us.

As some of you might know this "Army" talk of Alex's has been finding its way in, and out of our relationship for 4 years now. So instead of all this "Maybe Talk" we put a dead line on the Army. At the end of March this year we will see where our lives are going. Either we will be planning a wedding for sometime in November 2011, or March 2012, or we will be moving to an Army base somewhere in the US. I am more than ready to get the ball rolling on all this wedding stuff, but can't because I don't know if Alex will be here in 8 months or running 5 miles a day, and doing push-ups for a living in the Army.

I really want to be the supporting fiance, and say I am with you no matter what, but I will admit It's not a life I really saw myself in. If in fact he does join there will not be a wedding for several months, maybe even years. I just want to be sure that is a life style I can handle. I am nervous and scared I am not going to lie, I am just ready to know where I, or We are going. It's hard to have so much to look forward to, but not know if that’s where your life is even going, or if there is entirely new plans coming your way in 3 months.

I guess that’s the wonderful thing about life. You never know where it is going to take you.