Wedding Planning has Begun

I thought planning a wedding was going to be a little more enjoyable than the experience I have been having. My trouble is working with both families to find a meeting ground and have something we can agree on. It seems that my budget is way out of reach in Alex's eyes.

It's not just the budget we are not agreeing on...for instants my parents think it should be in all inclusive have someone do the food, and the decorations, and basically take care of the prep, and clean up. On the other hand his family thinks we should have like a back yard BBQ style and just let people help them selfs, and then his family will maintain the food table, and clean up.

uhhh I am just so stressed from thinking about this wedding, no WONDER wedding planners make so much. If I could afford it I would so hire someone to take this stress off my shoulders. I was under the impression guys really had no "input" :)!! It is always "Babe I don't care, whatever you like." but now you want to have an opinion on something???? Frustrating is what it is.

So tomorrow we have a could appts. set to go check out some venues. I want to take Alex to show him realistically how much we are going to have to spend for a wedding of 100 people.

So I will give an update of how things go tomorrow.

Wish me luck!

Valentine's Day Disasters

I am not writing this for sympathy really I just want to remember this so I have something to compare next year to.

Morning

I woke up like a normal day and went to work, with no unread text messages, or calls. I got to work to my office, and nothing was there, or waiting for me from Alex. I kept my eyes at the clock just waiting for a text message from Alex saying Happy Valentine's Day....and nothing.

So finally I texted him...Sarah: Happy Valentine's Day...Alex: Yeah you too baby.

hmmmm let me rewind some because I am probably coming off as a totally and complete B**** right now.

Yesterday was just another day, yes I know, but yesterday was also our 4th year to celebrate Valentine's day as a couple and yesterday was also our very 1st Valentine's day as an engaged couple. I have never asked for anything big, and nor do I want anything super expensive. I am a big believer in a sweet card with your sloppy hand writing inside it.

Afternoon

As the day drags on....nothing really changes I texted him around 1:30pm and said, Sarah: We are so going to cheat on dinner tonight, because I want to make a romantic dinner for us. ( Cheat on Carbs - We have been on our diet) Alex: Ok babe

So I get a call from Alex at 2:30pm saying " I am going to swing by ( I get excited)... to pick up my softball net..some of us are going to practice for a few hours. Me "oh"

Well in my head I saw this night going all wrong...after my "oh" I then asked "when you going to be home?"

Alex: "No later than 5:30"

Sarah: "Okay because I am going to cook dinner, and I want to eat at 6:00"

Alex: "Ok, Love you"

Later That Night

So I went home and rushed to cook dinner, clean up the house and even made him a cookie cake.

So after getting everything put together, and had his gift all ready for him on the table.

His gift was a card - with sloppy hand writing, and the movie 10 things I hate about you. Not expensive at all and took me about 15 mins to get together. It was not much, but it was also something I did last week because I hate waiting till last minute to do things like that.

Well the table was set, and I am waiting for Alex to walk in the door and be surprised.

So I sit down and watch tv, while watching the clock very closely.

6:00... rolls around and no Alex,

6:10... shows up on time, but no Alex,

Finally a call and he says he is leaving the ball fields, in Little Elm. Well for those of you who don't know how far the drive is from our house...I will inform you. It's a 45 min drive with traffic.

I am just pissed right now, and considered just sitting down and eating by myself.

6:30 ... No Alex

6:45.....Still No Alex

At this point...I can't even get any more pissed, but still am hopeful that he will walk through the door with a surprise for me and say I'm sorry, and we can eat our cold dinner together.

6:55...I hear foot steps...Alex walks in the door, wow that looks nice. kisses me and says I am starving.

We sit down to eat, he looks at his present and says I am not going to open it today, because I didn't get you anything.

....So here I did all this, and you were an hour late...and then show up empty handed. I was so pissed I didn't even have the strength to say anything.

So after dinner, I cleaned up the kitchen and went to bed.

It's days like that, that make me lose hope in our relationship. I am still mad at him today, and I am trying to tell myself to get over it, but I don't think I should have to just yet.

Sarah & Alex - KDAF

Sarah & Alex - KDAF