"I am who I am"

Some people just don't like me or understand me and that's fine last time I checked I didn't have a manual on how to understand Sarah. It's funny to imagine some times if I was not me...would i be friends with me? I guess what i am trying to get at is being a good friend and the true meaning of good friends....I have lost many people in my life for reasons stupid enough not even to mention. I have gone through so many "best friends" i really don't even know what that word means anymore. I have been let down, disappointed, stabbed in the back by to many so called "best friends" i think its harder for me to give my heart to friends than it would be a guy. I have one person who has been there through thick & thin and will always be there and he is my only best friend i have, Alex. Sometimes I wish i had the "Girls Group" again but when i think back....It was all & only drama. I am thankful for what I have and who I have in my life, and I'm okay with having one best friend and a lot of good friends!

....Just in case you were wondering! lol


Over and Out!

"Growing up is never easy"

So..here i am officially 21 and finding my self growing older everyday. Talking about houses with Alex and buying something we are going to be living in for years to come is really actually a scary thing, but nice to know that you have found the one and only person you want to do that with. I still think we are going to hold off on the whole house buying experience until next year, I really need a new car and it's just not possible to do both at the same time. Sometimes i feel like i am stuck in the mud and not really moving forward just living day by day.. going to the same job everyday and doing the same thing everyday. I hate those mornings when you wake up and wish everything was different, makes you think what you are doing now is not good enough. I guess it's because I compare my self to different people,and what they are doing.. which I learned is never a good thing. I think i have come a long way in these last few months...repaired my relationship with Alex, and everything is AMAZING and i would not take back what we went through to be where we are now. I found out who my real friends are, and yet was disappointed again, but whats new!I have a feeling like 2010 is going to be a good year, & i could use a good year!

Sarah