If you only knew what the future holds, After a hurricane comes a rainbow

Well that kind of felt like a freight train. Maybe we are not having a wedding in October..Maybe we are not having a wedding at all.

My plans for the future no longer exist....I was told by Alex today if we don't get married when he joins, I better be looking for a roommate..because he is not paying my rent??? Really?

I never thought he was "that" kind of guy. We have several talks about the whole not rushing in to marriage if you join. Making sure it is something we can both handle and then we can get married. It may be a month, 3 months, it may be a year. Since I was a little girl i never dreamed I would be an "Army Wife" I wanted the house and kids, and the husband home every night. I don't want to be a single mom, with kids who don't even know their father. That's NOT something I can handle.

So I am not sure if I should be planning my wedding, looking for apartments I can afford on my own, or what. I am losing all hope. If all come crashing down I hope Katy Perry is right....

"If you only knew what the future holds, after a hurricane comes a rainbow"