" I have forgot to stop, & smell the flowers."

"Life".... It's one of those words I to often use to explain an unfortunate situation or incident. My life right now is going so fast in front of my eyes I don't know where to grab and hang on to. I remind myself at night the things I didn't finish, and the things I need to add to tomorrows list. Its overwhelming and exhausting I have so many mixed emotions, but what is coming out the most is anger.

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I have reached a point where my body, and mind are telling me no, and I want to keep going. I am mad at the world because I feel like I am doing this all alone. In reality all I have to do is ask. It's a self battle with me and my thoughts, and what I want. I compare myself to other people, and where they are in life. I have forgot to stop and smell the flowers. I have been so involved in moving, getting unpacked, getting ready for housewarming party,The wedding (only 3 1/2 months away), softball, and working. I have forgot to remind the love of my life how much he really means to me.  I have forgot to call my mom and chat on the phone just to hear how she has been doing. I have forgot to run a hot bath and soak with some candles to relax.

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My vision is so tunneled right now I can't see anything around me, and I am terrified I am going to miss these moments.  These are the moments I am never going to get back. Alex and I have no kids, and we have our life...our plans, and everything we do is for us. I don't appreciate enough of what I have in life. I need to remember to stop and smell the flowers, because what if one day those flowers are not there to smell? Brings tears to my eyes to even image living a day without Alex, or my parents, our close friends. 

Instead of filling my mind with thoughts of what is not done, and what I am going to have to do next. Maybe I need to listen to what God wants me to hear, I am so busy always doing, and never have time to stop and listen.It's sad that I have to watch " P.s I love you" to make me want to lay in Alex's arms and smell his shirt...just to have that memory...and feeling.  My goal this week is listening. I am going to close my mouth and open my heart and listen to what God has for me to hear. 

P.s Here is our cute Housewarming Party invitations I made in word! 

Till then...